I'm in love... with the Apple of my i.

Oh my goodness... I never thought that I would be brave enough to do this... To declare my love so openly... so madly... so unashamed... but I really can't contain my heart. It's leaping out of my body... all at the sight of him...

Yes, it was love at first sight... It all started at Pavilion.. when I set my eyes on this beautiful baby and he on me . Couldn't stop thinking about him day and night. Had sleepless nights pondering whether we could ever be together, whether I should sacrifice it all to bring him home...

At first I was afraid to even think about it,... afraid that we weren't compatible... afraid that I will regret when the relationship comes with a lot of problems and nobody could help me... afraid that we wouldn't complement each other because I am already so used to my current loved one... I had always been loyal, because I followed the majority, I drifted along with the society norm - staying true and loyal is the virtue everyone supported... I have never thought of changing, because I have never really tasted the good life, never really tasted the "Forbidden Apple".... until now... I have been introduced to an angel... an answer sent from up above... He's calling out to me...wanting to be mine too and just sitting there... awaiting my answer...

Finally, I am given a choice.. and I am making this choice this week. Because I am in love... Yes, I am smitten... Yes, I am shouting, unabashed, untamed, because I cannot contain my heart's desire... I can't help it.... I want you... Yes, I want you... you're the one for me... Yes, Yes, Yes...

You ... the one and only... iMac... The Apple of my i.

This desire for iMac is so great that it gave me so much mixed emotions. After that fateful night at Pavilion, I was so blinded with love. I couldn't see anything else... none of the notebooks seems to measure up to this baby... I couldn't eat well, I couldn't sleep well. (fearing the unknown and unsure about its practicallity). I was so torn, so tormented... not knowing whether if I should have it... All kinds of strange emotions that this iMac flooded me... I know it's something that I WANT to HAVE, as it's GOOD to have and COOL to have, but it's NOT a NECESSITY. Yeah, in my mind, I know that it's not a necessity but I also know that having it will bring my life to a higher level... somewhere I have never been. And the best thing is, it works with Windows. So I don't have to leave my current life behind. I can have the best of both worlds, with just one machine.... Now isn't that what everyone is hoping for? :)

Yes, it comes with a price... RM5400 for the entry level 2.0 GHz: 4MB: 20 inch iMac... but hey, who says love is cheap? But i think i am worth it.

Here's the specs I am looking at: (Entry level in Malaysia is slightly lower specs than the US one)

20-inch Display
2.0 GHz Intel Core 2 Duo
4GB Memory (Kingston KTA?)
250GBHDD
8X Double Layer Super Drive (DVD drive which can write +/- and DVD RAM)
ATI Radeon HD2400 XT with 128MB memory
1GB Network card
Wifi
Built in Airport Extreme
Built in Bluetooth
3USB port
1GB firewire
1 aluminium keyboard
1 Mighty Mouse
iLife ‘08
3 Year Apple Care worth RM609

Places I went to, to find out more about my new lover, which made me fall in love more with him....

http://www.apple.com/getamac/windows.html

http://store.apple.com/1-800-MY-APPLE/WebObjects/AppleStore.woa/wa/RSLID?nnmm=browse&mco=MTE3MjI&node=home/shop_mac/family/imac

http://www.microsoft.com/mac/default.mspx



(*note: the author has always been loyal to using a PC with Windows OS and Windows based programs, and thus finds it emotionally difficult to break from the mould and move on with an iMAC. She has no previous professional training in Mac OS or anything with the little "i" in front or with the apple logo on it. As such, this is all a new and exciting experience for her. She's hoping that by sharing these wonderful first moments, she can remind herself how it all started. This is useful should she ever regret getting an iMac later... hahaha)

Crossroads

Life is truly a maze …. That’s why it’s amazing. It’s a labyrinth that takes us through endless crossroads which we have to choose our path in order to move forward or maybe stay put and be sucked into the never ending vortex of void, sometimes known as boredom, which is born out of routine cycles.

Sometimes, there are easy and clear choices which don’t need Einstein to figure out the best option to take. However, more often than not, we’re faced with extremely challenging crossroads where the path ahead is not as clearly laid as we would like it to be. There may not be street lights (not even lanterns nor torchlight) to brighten our way and it may even be a long and winding road ahead.

So do we tread along? Or do we sit down to rest on our laurels?

When we are still young, the answer is easy…. tread along we must. We were gung ho… we have nothing to lose… We don’t wait around for opportunity to come by, we just know we must seize whatever opportunity that we get. But as we grow older, we have already achieved so much more. And the more we have, the more we risk losing. And the higher the risk, the more afraid we become of losing. Money, friends, family, loved ones, social network, face, dignity…. We stand to lose all kinds of everything….

So now the question is, how do we tread along? Do we take what seemed to be the easy road at face value or do we follow our gut feelings to follow the road less traveled? Do we evaluate every single detail option until the opportunity disappear. I dont know. I dont have the answer.

Why am I pondering about all these? Is it because I am having a quarter life crisis or something? Well I don’t know either. It could be the sudden loss of a young friend recently which triggers a lot of thinking lately. It could be the various other changes currently happening in my life which has brought me onto crossroads after crossroads which made me reconsider all the options that life has offered me and all the options that I can create for myself.

Whatever it is, the answer is always in our own hands. We may not see the answer now, but we should keep on trying to find the answer. There is always an answer to everything. It is there but somehow our senses are sometimes blurred and we can’t see the obvious answer which is starring right at us.

It is times like these that many of us slide into depression. I do not deny that I am in a very confused state of mind now but I am conscious about it and I am awake enough to tell myself not to lose control. I think a lot of people go into depression unknowingly and easily lose control. Eventually they lose themselves and end up doing foolish things. Those who are lucky live to regret about it but there are those who don’t even live long enough to regret. So, take a deep breath and try to take everything in our stride....The key is never to give up. Seek and we shall find as the answer lies right in front of us. Don’t pressure ourselves to see the answer too soon, for everything will unveil themselves when the time is ripe.